I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

I'm Glad My Mom Died

I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jennette McCurdy

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Growing up in a strict household I thought it was torture. I was raised Baptist, and my mother was a Children’s church administrator/Sunday School Teacher, and my father was a Deacon/Trustee/Pastor’s right hand man.

I couldn’t do anything. You hear me?! My brother and I were raised with high expectations to say the least. However, they raised us up just like all the other Black families who wanted their children to do better than them. “Stay on the straight and narrow, and YOU can get out of the hood one day!”

Reading this book made me reminisce on my childhood and think of the job my parents did in raising me. Though I thought it was hell, in retrospect, it wasn’t. They were honestly trying to do their best and wanted the very best for their Black children while living in the redlined neighborhood of Cleveland, OH.

Jennette McCurdy though, she had a hell of a childhood. Well, I take that back, she didn’t have a childhood. Her mother, made sure of it. Jennette is known for her roles in the Disney Network and Nickelodeon programming of iCarly and the spin-off of Sam and Cat. My own child has watched those shows, and even enjoyed it. Reading about her experiences growing up and how her mother successfully lived vicariously through her daughter through her ENTIRE childhood was depressing as hell. As a parent, it was hard reading about her experiences as she was embarking through her journey into forced stardom. Her mother, as a child, wanted to be an actress, and because her parents did not want her to pursue that career, she made sure that when she had her daughter, her daughter was GOING to be a star and become an actress.

As a parent, we are sometimes burdened with the ideas of wanting our offspring to be better, do better, have better, and go higher than us. Some parents take it too far. Jennette McCurdy’s mom definitely took it to the extreme, and to the point of emotional abuse, manipulation, and violence. Jennette got into acting through her mother’s manipulation and control. Due to her mother’s actions, and neglecting Jennette emotionally in all manners of speaking, she forced Jennette into a life of acting that she never wanted. Beyond the acting, she subjected Jennette to emotional abuse, control, and devastating manipulation. As a young child, all children want to do is please their parents. Jennette developed people pleasing skills at a young age, and continued to suffer from people pleasing for her entire childhood, during her acting career.

I listened to this book, and was devastated with the level of abuse she suffered. Her mother was narcissistic and abusive and manipulated everyone she knew and interacted with. She was emotionally abusive and manipulative to her other children, to her husband, and to people helping her get Jennette into the business. She also used her religion (Mormonism) as a means to an end, treating the church like a genie bottle and when they didn’t serve her interests, she let them go as well.

Listening to this book made Jennette’s story sound and feel super intense. I highly recommend the audio because it gives her story so much contextual “power” that you do not want to pass up that opportunity if you are able to listen. You can feel the stress and strain in her voice as she recounts these memories, and it compels you to really hear her, see her, and understand her as she tells you this heartbreaking story of her childhood. To be honest, I’m glad her mom is dead too, as I can imagine this was pure hell to endure.

5 stars. This story will break your heart.

Thank you to Libro.fm, Simon & Shuster Audio, and to the author Jennette McCurdy for this book in exchange for a fair and honest review.

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The Obelisk Gate by N.K. Jemisin

The Obelisk Gate (The Broken Earth, #2)

The Obelisk Gate by N.K. Jemisin

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

The dreaded ‘middle book syndrome’ did not come for The Obelisk Gate. The second book is deftly aware that it leaves you in a lurch, but it’s a delicious lurch, priming you for the third and final book of this series.

The Obelisk Gate picks up where it left off, but it broadens your viewpoint. We get to see more into the backstory of what happened in that first chapter of The Fifth Season when Jija murders Uche, and what happens afterwards, along with the disappearance of both Jija and Nassun. We find out who was behind the great shockwave that rippled and tried to destroy Tirimo, and what all occurred during that timeframe. We learn what happened to Alabaster in the decade he was apart from Syenite/Essun/Damaya, and what’s in store for the future. Basically, we’re being caught up, and as a reader, you’ve been frothing at the mouth to understand what exactly happened and why. This book soothes that need a bit… cause of course, there’s lots more to go.

The world-building expands in this book. Character development and the introduction of new key players are the front runners in this bridge to the end. We see lots of character progression, growth, pacing, movement of the plot, and priming us for the ultimate showdown that is bound to happen in book 3. This book is brilliant in it’s storytelling, and as annoying as it is that the author keeps things purposely lost to us, is just so f*%#ing genius and imaginative that I could never see this story going any other way.

This is the best 2nd book of a trilogy I’ve ever read. 5 stars.

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